bittersweet…

Today is bittersweet. It feels like I chugged a bottle of vinegar! Today after two days of attempts Lily finally drank some formula. This milk factory is closing down! I have been struggling with coming to this decision for a long time! I never experienced the pain and discomfort that some women have breastfeeding and I am so thankful for that. I just feel like I am a slave to feedings. I hate to feed out in public and Lily is hungry every two hours!! So by the time I stop feeding her I have to quickly get out and get errands done before I need to be back home to feed her all over again. At two months I was really thinking of throwing in the towel. Formula is so expensive and I knew that if I could hang in there Lily would be getting the very best nutrients from my milk. I made the decision to wait until she was six months.

Now that she is almost seven months I am finally making the change. I am looking forward to the freedom to being able to feed her in public. I am looking forward to having some wine and not worrying about how much! I am looking forward to being able to go on a date night with my husband and not fooling with pumping. I am totally looking forward to my chest returning to its pre-baby size so I can exercise without distractions…TMI I know! Plus when I do exercise my milk supply heavily decreases! But I am going to miss the bonding time. Even though I am switching to bottles I still want to be the one feeding them to her. Of course I will let Mike feed her once and awhile, but I still want it to be our time together. So hopefully tomorrow Lily will drink some more and I will slowly be able to wean her. And hopefully this will start to taste sweeter with time…

 

 
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